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ivy.parker 17.josh's girl.iluvcrafts. home archives cast profile notes ivyblog d-land READS sleepyjane ellie simon&josh ivyoaks craigdeanchronicals wheneveryoneknew trace cyrus fanfic 2differentroads skinnylizzie random1289 megsworld2 black-ankh the-it-man dylanwashere catsoul shot-of-tea janedoe0 frogeye errantnights joie-- tsulnagrom ub40 juswords englishsucks ledeluge seereason pigtail22 my-line endthelies elliestuff auj LINKS bands bookcrossings crafts | I am being so lazy. I guess I have to pick up my stuff at school soon. Josh is still bugging me. He's got it in his head we should get married and then my Dad wouldn't get my money. Its crazy. Its not gonna happen. Its just him talking. Its not like he's drunk. He has stopped all drinking and smoking. Not because he's gone religious or anything. Its just sooooooo expensive. He's not old enough to drink anyway. He never really smoked so it wasn't all that hard to give it up, but when he was with his buds and what not and they would drinking and that kind of thing...well, anything goes. But not now. And sometimes, I miss it. OK, not that much. Not really. I can't believe I said that. He can be fun to watch. But then he thinks he's so damn HAWT. Which is not always the case. So now he thinks he wants to get married. I think he's lost it. But anyway...... Nice thought. I just have to get through this year. And its not all about HIM. I don't know why I'm capitalizing things. Yes, on one hand, I would love to have a family. I love for us to be just that. But not, you know, oh god I must have kids kind of thing. Just the idea to not be me, but somebody else. A wife. Though, that sounds so old, you know. And we would not be on our own. Of course. We might live a decade with his Mom (at the rate we are going). Its not all our fault. This economy sucks and people are doing strange things. Like wanting to get married. As of yet, no ring. So I'm not even listening. And I don't think he's discussed it with his Mom. And I don't see me actually getting my Dad's signature on anything like a marriage wavier or whatever. I think I'd have to be 18 and of course, he keeps bugging me about that. "Well..we could do it on your birthday." Oh sure. Right. I'm just a little overwhelmed. Lost. Is that it? I read all about how some girls are "waiting" and whatever until they are married. Here I am. Already, his. Just don't know if I can even live with him for more that 3 days. You know. OK, we did. It was about a week. It wasn't so bad. Something to think about.  alex.evans
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