part of the puzzle

2008-05-28

Its just been so hectic lately. I can't seem to get anything completely done.

I'm afraid I won't get that car. I don't know what Dad's going to do. He just can't seem to stay positive about anything. He's driving me nuts.

Josh is trying to keep me sane. Now I know why my Dad isn't around. We drive each other to the brink of huge arguements about anything and everything.

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.....

Then there is Driver's Ed. Which I don't have a clue how that's going to go. I'm all tense and jumpy.

Work sucks. Its not that great of a place to work. Hopefully, if I can last there and wait for something at the grocery store where Josh works, that'll be better. I'll just have to wait and see.

All this waiting.

And I know there are so many horrible things going on in the world like the earthquakes in China, gas prices and war, that I shouldn't be so upset about all this.

I saw Jesse today on his bike with a guitar on his back. It was the freakest thing. I just wish I hadn't seen him. I don't think he saw me because he might have stopped if he had, but maybe what hurts worse is that he did see me and he didn't stop.

Yeah, I know, that is so last summer, and I should forget it. I'm not going to wonder how things would have been different if he'd just been there for me. I know it would be so fleeting. It would have been.

I just don't need to think about it. I know. Only its hard not too.

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alex.evans