brrrr...its cold again

2008-04-25

Its cold and wet...and the wind is a blowing...

But its Friday!

It won't be all that long til driver's ed. I don't know what to do. Apply for summer jobs now and hope to get one before school is out, or wait until after driver's ed.

Its a tricky situation.

Also I'm really behind on some math I need to turn in so I promised I'd stay in this weekend and do that or otherwise, I'm grounded.

I'll get to see Josh for a little bit at dinner. He's coming at seven to eat then he's going to work. We'll see how long this 'good behavior' of ours last..until we can stand it no more. Its just I have stuff to do with school. He's got stuff to. Cause he's graduation. Yeap. It doesn't feel that way. But he is.

Sometimes, he's like this little boy who's a tad needy and what not. Then he can turn around and have all the answers. Drives me nuts, sometimes.

But I think it'll all be ok. I keep thinking of this line in Wristcutters where the main character keeps wanting to see these little mircles happen..like matches flying in the air...and he ask why they aren't happening for him, and the guy and charge tells him, "If you don't think about it, it'll happen." So I'm trying not to think what might happen to us. It'll happen. What ever that is.

And hopefully, in the long run he won't think I'm a lazy bum. I get that impression from him, sometimes. Like, you haven't decided what you're gonna do?

For a while, I seriously thought he was going to go into the Army. Frankly, I don't know if any of the other military services would take him. But he's not going. Which, I know I'm not very patriotic, but I'm glad he's not. At least he's going to go to the nearby college for awhile, but he says it'll feel like high school, because it'll be at night at the high school.

Kind of wish he'd get that dormroom experiece. Kind of don't. Sort of like I wish I'd waited on having sex, yet kind of don't, either. Maybe it can't be explained.

Here I am rambling and I have late assignment to dig for in my room and get them in some sort of order. Otherwise, I might be in summer school.

Hope not.

Wish I loved all my teachers. Wish I loved school. But I'm not like that.

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alex.evans